This happened several years ago,
when I was 14 years old.
My cousin
was at our place a lot.
One day when we were alone
he wanted us to
watch porn.
I did not want to.
I tried to go away
but he closed the door.
He put on the movie
and told me to sit down
next to him.
I thought it looked disgusting.
But my body became turned on.
Even though I didn’t want to be.
Why did my body react that way?
I felt confused.
I was ashamed.
He asked if I wanted to
do what they were doing in the movie.
I got angry and scared
at the same time.
I screamed no
and left the room.
Later that night, my mom asked
how I was doing.
Then I told her
what had happened.
My mom thought it was good
that I had left.
She was angry with my cousin.
But not with me.
No one can force you
to watch porn
or do something else sexual
against your will.
It can be hard
to speak up when it is your family
or other people you are close to.
Forcing someone
to watch porn
is sexual violence.
If you have been forced
to do something sexual
you may feel bad.
Talk to someone you trust.
